As I was driving to 24 Hour Fitness on a windy road late at night, a car on the opposite side sped through the stop sign and almost hit the car in front of me. Realizing that the road made a sharp turn the car braked, skidded, and "BANG!" For those brief seconds that felt like several minutes I debated if I should stop or move on? Did he do a hit and run? Should I track him down? What if he's hurt?

I decided to continue on to 24 Hour Fitness seeing as how there were other cars on the road who witnessed the situation. I felt so guilty for not stopping. I've heard stories of people in need and those who watch doing nothing to help them. That was me yesterday night.

After my brief workout, I took the same road home to see if all was alright. I could see police lights up ahead, and as I got closer there was a tow truck and a electrical company's truck approaching. I realized I was driving over glass and could see bumper parts here and there. There was a BMW in the bushes. I asked the police if everything was alright and they said it was.

I couldn't shake the fact that I just left and didn't stop to help. People these days are always waiting for someone else to do something or just too involved in themselves, yesterday I was one of those people.

Have you stopped to help those around you? Or have you been too busy to stop?

When I drive I always like to check out people's license plate frames and other various stickers on their cars. I think it's a good indicator of what people believe. Some of the popular ones of late are "Hope 08 Obama," "Free Tibet," etc. I used to have a fish on the back of my car but then I realized my driving habits don't reflect the fish all the time. Going to seminary, I would see our school's red parking sticker on people's cars and I would know immediately on the freeway that this person is a fellow colleague. There have been numerous times where i've wondered if people should even post their faith on their cars with their driving habits. I figured "well i'm an asian female and that's already a wammie against me (regardless if i drive well or not), don't want to stumble more people."What do you think? Should Christians put fish stickers, etc on their cars? More harm then good? Has anyone ever been saved by someone's stickers?

Being engaged has opened my eyes to my inadequacies more and more. I keep asking myself am I really ready to get married, when I have so many problems. I have become aware of an anger problem that I thought I had quelled years ago, but I realize my ex boyfriend who brought the worst out of me, brought it all back. All this becomes compounded, as I realize how nothing has ever been good enough for my mom, and I push all of this on my fiancee. I make him feel like he's not good enough, i blow up in his face, at times.
   My mom complains about everything, and nags me like crazy. I feared this would happen, and I realized how I am becoming like my mom combined with my dad's temper problem. Why is it that I am the embodiment of everything bad from my parents.
  I've prayed to God to help me. I've looked into different Christian counseling methods, and I don't know where to start. I can throw Bible verses at my problems, but it doesn't get to the heart of the issue. I keep telling myself that I am God's creation, wonderfully and fearfully made. I have to keep reminding myself that my self worth isn't found in what my mom says, but in who God made me to be. But i've become this monster! I love my parents, but lately hate is starting to brew in my heart. I want to hate them and blame them for the way I am now, and how it affects my relationship with my fiancee.
   This whole situation has hit me like a ton of bricks as my wedding day approaches and I have begun to rethink our marriage because I just don't seem like i'm good enough. I don't want to hurt him, but what can I do?